Amor had gone straight home when they were brought back to their normal lives, only a few hours had passed in the real world despite him experiencing twenty years in that dimension. All he had brought back with him was a bracelet with the letters of his childrens names on it. Ten letters for ten kids, and he felt his heart sink once more as the memories still felt so fresh to him. His body had regained it's youthful vigor, and he was no longer an older man. He felt lighter probably due to all the muscle he had lost from his "other" body. Blacksmithing for twenty years along with training he had become incredibly muscular, but now he was back to his usual lean form. It didn't feel natural....He felt like an alien in his own body, everything moved properly, but it just felt wrong.

He had told Walter about the experience, and so he was out in the front of his yard with Draco, his shirt was off as he checked himself for new scars that he should have had from his years of blacksmithing, and the fight. However there was nothing....Just the scars that he always had. The ones from the assassin, Palkia, and others from training with Walter. As he put his shirt back on, he felt Draco step away from him, and that was when eh felt the embrace from behind.

Instinctively he flinched away, having spent twenty years keeping other women away from him had given him a reflex he hadn't stifled yet. Though when she spoke, he instantly recognized the voice, and he turned around to wrap her up in his arms.

"It does feel like it has been a while doesn't it? I missed you too beloved." His cadence of speech was slower than before, more measured. Planting a kiss on the top of her head he just held her close to him. She didn't know that she was the reason he had managed to make it through those years. Her, and his kids, and he felt the pang in his chest again despite the warmth from the woman he loved in front him.

Elise Calcifet

He just listened, he didn't speak for several minutes. Letting her warm tears soak his shirt without complaint he just held her, and listened. She had lost people she cared about as well, and just like him, she had found a new purpose in that place, a family. Twenty years she had been gone, but in reality only in the blink of an eye. It was the same for him a whole other life was just torn from him even though he expected to come back to this one, but part of him wondered if that was even for the best. Still he didn't talk, and just ran his fingers through her hair, and down her back trying to soothe her tears, and emotions.

"It's okay...." He spoke softly to her, but the truth was that it wasn't going to be okay. Because Amor knew that at the end of this he was going to leave her even more broken. A lot had happened, he had changed mentally even if physically he was the same. The flash of Marcus dying in front of him still haunted him, he had finally gotten over one trauma only for another to replace it. If that was what you could even call it, and he shoved those thoughts aside for the moment, and instead did his best to comfort her.

Elise Calcifet

Like a knife in his heart he just held her close, and tried to smile through it, but he closed his eyes took a deep breath, and then met hers. This wasn't going to get easier just because he procrastinated.

"I was put through a similar ordeal as you....Forced to live through a lifetime in the blink of an eye....I...." The bracelet on his wrist only caused the knife to twist further. "It took a great toll on me to say the least....And while it was you who got me through that....Things happened, and I think...." He frowned inwardly at himself. "I think we should end things....At least romantically....I'll always be there for you, I do love you....But I can't...." There was a weariness in his voice, and eyes that hadn't been there before.

He felt the world collapsing in on his back trying to force him down, and he hated what he was doing right now, but he needed time to process everything. Time away, time alone....

"It's just alot....I'm sorry...." He really meant those last words as he just hugged her again if she let him. He didn't speak of his kids, of how one of them died in front of him....Of how his son was the only reason that he was standing there right now.

"Forgive me...."

Elise Calcifet

It wasn't to late for him to back out of his decision, he could still undo this if he wanted to...

But was it fair to Elise?

There was so much she didn't know about him not for lack of her trying, but due to his own issues with opening up. Due to his fear of losing someone again, and he had almost lost her, or at least he had felt that way due to dorian westcliff. She was the best kind of woman he could ask for, but he didn't deserve her, not like he was now....Maybe not ever.

Maybe she felt different.

Maybe he was being selfish.

Maybe he was stupid...

Amor had thought that he had become less broken during his time in that place, she was the one that got him through it, and here he was asking her to leave. What kind of sense did that make?

A flash of red in his mind snapped him back to attention, and he just gave her a kiss on the forehead. The stab wound in his heart from the loss of Marcus, the loss of all of his children....He was stupid he knew that. He was pathetic, but he needed to fix himself, and she didn't deserve to be dragged into the muck as he worked out his issues. There were many, and maybe one day when he finally felt he had overcome it all.....Maybe she would give him another chance, if she hadn't found happiness by then.

"I love you, Elise..." Came the softly whispered words before he stood up, and excused himself from the area before he could change his mind.

Amor wasn't as strong as he pretended to be, especially not in matters of the heart it was why he had outright attacked the mad dog. One day he would be however....

One day....He would let himself be happy.

Elise Calcifet