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ACTIVITY CHECK (JULY '23)
POSTED ON Jul 20, 2023 21:18:01 GMT
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POSTED ON Jul 15, 2023 19:04:11 GMT
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"Preaching to the choir." He oh so knew the bicep game of the king. Man swung around a shield against soldiers, and practically was able to lift like a feather. Of course, he doesn't tell Isaac this.[break][break]

That's kind of... private bedroom things. Lewd stuff.[break][break]

But the laugh, the happiness he felt, it was completely legitimate. Ashley was happy. Ecstatic. The scars did remain, and that was just who Ash was. But the thing about twenty years of happiness, well, what happiness he could scrounge from it... was how much good was in there.[break][break]

Hearing that there was a seat saved for him though as the honorary best man has him melt more. His hug tightens. He forgets how much he had worked out before in this current, twenty-five year old version of himself. He squeezes Isaac a little too hard... can't blame the guy though.[break][break]

Man missed Isaac something fierce. The dogs really did have something special, making two whole worlds to fix what was broken.[break][break]

But it's that optimism that returns back to Ashley.[break][break]

"Yeah. You're right... Arceus, man, I missed that positivity." It really was something. No matter how much glass half-empty Ashley saw the world, the glass half-full in Isaac's had him see it differently. And now, as he feels the shield locket, and the jagged blade fragment of the crown touch, he nods.[break][break]

"I'm gonna do it right this time."[break][break]

He smiles, and takes a breath in.[break][break]

"Your turn. What happened in... your... dog dream?" The fuck do you even call it?



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NOTES


- OUTFIT[break]
- Ash remembering his own biceps, and how much Kepler liked it OOPS. That's lewd stuff.[break]
- Missed that optimism. Their artifacts touch.[break]
- Isaac's turn. The fuck happened?






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THE BORDER: IKA
POSTED ON Jul 15, 2023 18:48:32 GMT
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What was going on, in the mind of Ashley Shepard, was the roaring constantly pulsing through his head. A childish yelling, a roar to do the impossible. It was impossible. He knew it, but the denial of the situation was insurmountable. He wasn't going to say it. He wasn't going to say that Isaac was... that he had...[break][break]

He was just gone. He could come back. He had to. He would. It doesn't occur to him that Isaac is truly gone. The denial continues to drive him. His Pokemon continue the assault. Until Ashley hears Kepler behind him. Life once again.[break][break]

Venus is... they're back? He whips around, long enough for him to see the Golurk having rebuilt herself, somewhat, long enough for the Golurk to attempt to come at Ashley, only for Bongo to sock the big guy with a WOOD HAMMER to the jawline, and a crack to his neck. Ain't no fool takin' away the lovebirds, and the best man was gettin' avenged.[break][break]

If Venus was fine, then what about-[break][break]

Kep sees it first. The strobe light on the shield. He hops onto Cryothesia, the Starmie going in, and Ash watched him fly. Then his eyes hit the strobe light. And it clicks. It clicks completely. His mouth hangs open a moment. He flies through, until the Starmie is lodged in, and ice burns right through. They had a chance, right?[break][break]

As the Golurk's hand seized the Mega Knuckles and copied Delirium, Ashley calls to Bass. "No quarter, bud. Dragon Pulse." Bass flies in like a quite literal bat out of hell, and blasts that hand back, trying to force it to release Knuckles and Delirium. Another hand comes for Hagakure, and Ash nods to Salem, who rushes in and smacks the hand back with a FOUL PLAY, smacking into the hand. Ashley's team was an oiled machine.[break][break]

Kepler had surgically entered in, and now there was a chance. As the soul was Protect'd by Pluto, and Kep runs like a hell to get it back to the body, Ashley sees the golem make one last attempt to reach out to snatch his love away.[break][break]

And Ashley took offense to that, but he didn't have to do anything. Because Watson, the crazy little croc he was, came crashing down with the shield, and Titan controlled and possessed mashed the Grim Reaper with it like mashed potatoes, keeping the bastard down. Which meant, Kepler had time.[break][break]

He turns his head around, and back towards his team, Isaac's team, Kepler's team. "Keep it at bay." With a collective nod, he speeds after Kepler, as he calls out let there be light.[break][break]

Sliding down next to Isaac now, right beside him...[break][break]

He just hoped it would work.



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NOTES


- Hearing Venus' return, Grim Reapy Man attempts to grab Ash, and gets WOOD HAMMERED-FISTED by Bongo.
- This Golurk CLOWNSHOES. Assault continues, beating the daylights. Ashley notices strobes after Kep, and plays defense for his bae.[break]
- Hands on Knuckles and Delirium? Bass smashes with a Dragon Pulse. Hands near Hagakure? Salem goes for the Foul Play.[break]
- Well. Oiled. Machine. Ashley slides to where Kepler now is. Let there be light.






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THE BORDER: IKA
POSTED ON Jul 15, 2023 8:04:31 GMT
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Roars reverberate from his throat. He can feel his throat rip and tear from how loud he was yelling. How loud he had been screaming. Knuckles and Watson had become distraught. Pained. And all because of this goliath. This future pile of rubble that Ashley would grind into dust. His forces slammed everything they could, and when his pistol was done firing, he threw the gun at the bastard golem, like that would do anything.[break][break]

"BASTAAAAAAAAAAARD!" His throat was raw like sandpaper rubbing against every wall in. And his Pokemon continued the good fight. More DARK PULSEs, more WOOD HAMMERs, more DARK PULSES, and a FLAME CHARGE for added effect. But the cry screams continued, though ever dying. Like an ember.[break][break]

Pluto would release a Poliwrath, who fought back themselves, as they protected a similar looking Golurk... Isaac's Ditto? But when he turns around, to his horror, Isaac's body was standing. Like an apparition. And he watches the... whatever this thing was, fight. Strike on with the Aegislash, Ashley doesn't question it.[break][break]

By the time the Golurk was being pushed back, Ashley pulls it out. The Tera Orb. And with Sunny, he begins to charge the ball in his hand, returning the Scorbunny, and reeling a hand back, pitching it back out. And with it, Sunny would lose his speed. But he would gain the power of the Dragon. Libero would not work as it conventionally did now.[break][break]

"Give him back."[break][break]

It wasn't going to hurt him. But the Golurk would fine an Electro Ball consistently colliding to the face. Like a fun little static shock. Over. And over. Like torturing.[break][break]

"I won't ask you again. Everyone. Beat its ass."[break][break]

Didn't have to tell them twice. They were going harder. Kicking this dickhead Golurk's tail until it complied with Ashley's demands.



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NOTES


- Ashley's throat is raw. But the assault continues on unabated, no matter what.[break]
- Tera Orb's Sunny to DRAGON TYPE, to give resistance to the bunny while the assault continues on the Golurk. Ash isn't playing.[break]
- Sunny Electro Ball's their jaw constantly to essentially taser the Grim Golurk Reaper.[break]
- Demands for Isaac back. Uncertain if that's even possible. He wants the Golurk to take it back.






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Ultramar [S]
POSTED ON Jul 15, 2023 8:00:39 GMT
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No amount of tears can bring it back. Nothing ends the pain. It's here, it's home, it's everywhere. He wept. It kept coming back to him, but it felt like it was fading at the edges of his memory. Every so often, it was harder to recall than previous. He didn't want to lose that. He kept the crown shard as a means to remember. To not forget. Their time in Galar.[break][break]

It all comes back, reinforced harder when he stares at the crown piece.[break][break]

All he can do is cry, and even when Isaac hugs him, it doesn't make the pain go away. It does lessen the agony and trauma. The torment and the strife, though slightly faded, still ever-present. All of the scars remained. But it was nice...[break][break]

It breaks him a little. "Twenty years, and you're still the same hugger that you were before." He laughs, tears pricked on his eyes, the light chuckle bringing to an end the twenty years of pain it was from seeing him. He does this, even if he can't hold it together. It's never going to mend the scars on the soul, but it is the care needed to alleviate it.[break][break]

"Glad to see that... hahaha." He's laughing, and though his heart hurts, his chest burns, he is able to return to it. In fact, this is new. This is... happy Ashley. That's right! He had this laugh when he was older. He felt happiness...[break][break]

He pulls Isaac into a tighter hug now. And now... the happier memories start to bleed in. "... I wanted you there as my best man." The longing and want. would have been there too. Hell, he wanted to come too. Crazy as that guy was. , @naya too... he wanted them to come. He wanted to share his happiness with them. , , , . He wanted them to come... but...[break][break]

It hurts.[break][break]

It hurts, but now he had a chance to do it right.[break][break]

"I'm glad we're back... but it can't replace what's gone now." And that was the biggest pain point. What could have been. Stripped and taken away.[break][break]

Nothing will fix that now.



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NOTES


- OUTFIT[break]
- Missed his homie Isaac, the hugger. Notes how much he hasn't changed.[break]
- Isaac missed his wedding... so many people missed his wedding.[break]
- He's happy to be back, to reconnect, but... it still hurts...






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Ash
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EYES OF GOD [M]
POSTED ON Jul 15, 2023 7:58:16 GMT
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Galar was... eye-opening. Twenty years ago, he was the same person they see now, but just last week he was a completely changed person. He was able to work through his baggage, well, what baggage they had present. He was better. He was so much better than this. Whatever this was.[break][break]

He had done every dream he had ever wanted before Rocket got its claws back in him. He got married. He made an orphanage. He was able to make a difference.[break][break]

All of it snapped into pieces when the Black Knight won...[break][break]

"Yeah. During the Ultra Sea mission, the Interdream played tricks on me." Ashley responds, and looks at a Pokeball of his, and raises a brow. "Have one myself."[break][break]

... is it weird that he missed Hitoshi for his blunt bloodlust? It's weird to think about, but he almost missed their rapport. But he never expected him to respond with missing both of them. How they got sucked into the Sword and not the Shield. That... surprised Ashley greatly.[break][break]

"You too, man."[break][break]

He felt more mature than he had been. If he had one regret, it was treating Hitoshi like shit in their first meeting, but now he just smiles. It's comforting to have someone like him around. Selena too. But unlike Hitoshi, he had her around all the time, as royalty. Hitoshi had neither of them.[break][break]

"It was wild. Became royalty. Almost clobbered the shit out of Zacian the first time... it feels like so long ago."[break][break]

...[break][break]

Better stick to the mission. He shakes his head. "Come on. The Glimmora should be around here somewhere. That'll give us insight on where to go." Ashley takes the helm. He felt different. This felt like a group he could depend on. And so he would.



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NOTES


- OUTFIT, MISSION[break]
- Ashley is happy to have both of them nearby.[break]
- Notes he has fought Paradox Mons before during Postdorm. Brought his Roaring Moon, El Diablo, along.[break]
- Admits he missed Hitoshi.[break]
- Goes into events of GG, but changes the subject. Gotta find Glimmora...






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Ash
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Ashley Shepard
How to be Friends Again [S][C]
POSTED ON Jul 15, 2023 7:42:37 GMT
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Violet versus silver, and it burned. It ripped into Ash, tore in like a knife. A knife he dug into that shoulder. He winces. But he doesn't relent, not for a second.[break][break]

"It was enough. Because you still get to wake up tomorrow." Pain and anguish were a lot less than the loss of a life. Hands balled into fists, and he prepared to throw them at Jayden... and he stops. He stops, because even if Jayden wasn't giving him what he wanted, acting like a child wasn't going to solve this. Something about Jayden always did make him go back to when they were kids. Bitter as it was... like arguing teens.[break][break]

He takes a breath.[break][break]

"Sacrifice isn't the answer. I admit. But I do think it's presumptuous to prefer Cygne or Isaac as leader without having seen how I work now. Personal feelings shouldn't cloud judgment."[break][break]

So he provides compromise.[break][break]

"How do I prove myself to you?"[break][break]

Now if he can only stick the landing.



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NOTES


- Ashley retaliates but... manages to get back in control of his anger. No longer wishing this.[break]
- Tells Jayden it's presumptuous to judge him based off personal feelings.[break]
- Asks how to prove himself.






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Ash
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Ashley Shepard
carry on, carry on, as if nothing even matters [s][c]
POSTED ON Jul 8, 2023 23:26:06 GMT
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Any amount of time feels miniscule when compared to the twenty year trek of Galar. The memories they had together, the love shared, everything. All of the friends they lost. All of the ones they made. The rings. The wedding. The-[break][break]

That's too far. Too quick. But when Kep responds with venom, Ashley feels it seep into the veins. It's like bleeding, a pool of blood now bloodletting them dry. They had to talk to get through it. Ash was still in pain, in his own turmoil, but if he could pull Kepler out, if he could get his fiancee out of this...[break][break]

He grabs his hand.[break][break]

"We have to."[break][break]

This is the only path. If they don't? Their relationship will be ruined, stained, a dejected mess of former flamed romance. They have to speak of those gone. Of what could have been. Of the lives they had, now reduced. To some, this ambrosial turning of the clock would be a miracle to allow them a second run around the track. For them, this was not that.[break][break]

This was just trauma. A thing Ash knew well.[break][break]

But the defeat and pain in his tone was enough. "Please." He pulls Kepler to him, and his voice trembles, and his heart shatters. "Talk to me." He held Kepler tighter. He wanted to get them both out of the hole. He needed to save them both, or they'd drown. This was the turning point.[break][break]

"My queen."[break][break]

That's a button to press. Let's see how it pays off.



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NOTES


- BEGGING to get Kep to talk. They have to. It needs to happen.[break]
- Says 'my queen'. That'll go real well...






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today's the day [m][c]
POSTED ON Jul 8, 2023 23:25:21 GMT
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Oh, now they're scientists. Like logic is any basis behind love. Love is stupid! Probably! He just liked this smart love. It felt cute. It felt sweet. And yeah, so it was totally not a coincidence that he placed all these clues for Kepler to find...[break][break]

Yeah... he can't play dumb. But, as he feels Kepler walk around their chairs to give him a kiss on the forehead, Ashley can't help but smile.[break][break]

Resolve reinforced.[break][break]

And so, as they begin to walk, he holds Kepler's hand tightly, speaking up. "We got together in Halloween, last year? That's almost a year ago, huh?" It was earlier than that they met. Splashfest, if he remembered. But they only formally became a couple then, before Meteno claimed everything away from them. He was a different person back then, it feels, but really, he wasn't.[break][break]

This is who he had always been. As he walks in the sand, feet touching the hot sands themselves, each step, he felt more sure of himself.[break][break]

"I wanted to impress you so much. I was down bad." He was quiet. He wanted to enjoy the memory. "So much so I wanted to cook sushi for you... then I fell. Hard." His cheeks heat up. And he gives away the answer to the little hint. "Caesar cyphers are not easy, you know? Seven letters away seemed easy enough for that." He kept walking. He found the spot he wanted to do it.[break][break]

A little alcove, where rocks sat just above the waves, with the waves crashing around. Falling and cascading everywhere, to wetten all. He was certain. Let the water splash on them both when he says it.[break][break]

"I'm happy with you. Kepler Brueshaber."[break][break]

Almost time now. All the Pokemon are in place. Maple, having followed with Holy Diver and Kingsley providing bubbles with a little frosted rainbow to them, Ana setting around little rose petals in a tiny basket, and Laguna just along for the ride.[break][break]

"Wanna know what's on my mind?"



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NOTES


- OUTFIT, IN HIS HAND, MISSION[break]
- Oh memory lane. What a cute little thing it is. Reveals the caesar cypher. Seven letters forward, revealing 'Will you'.[break]
- Finds the perfect spot. Holy Diver, Kingsley, Ana, and Maple have gotten it all ready.[break]
- Asks him 'Wanna know what's on my mind?'






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Ultramar [S]
POSTED ON Jul 8, 2023 22:26:43 GMT
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Ah. So Isaac had it happen too. This... whatever the fuck this was. This nightmare? Plague? The twenty years that would now sit in his mind, remembered as fully as he could. Scraps, stitched together to a life that should have been, but never could be. It's twenty years that this crown was the only acknowledgment of. The proof that Rocket and the League could one day put aside every difference to be something.[break][break]

What a cruel joke.[break][break]

What was reality now? A figment of the past that had to be lived through?[break][break]

The thing is though, he helped cause the conflict. In his youthful ignorance, he slapped Zacian down with Reinhardt. It wasn't the Nidoking's fault, and he made sure the big guy knew it, but there was something to see a king cry like him. As if, telling Ashley he was sorry for what he did to him. The weight on the back of the beast. Ashley couldn't know what Rein was going through. But he wouldn't abandon the king either.[break][break]

Kings stayed together.[break][break]

It's okay not to be okay. Ashley fiddles with the crown in his hand, and as Isaac said to speak of what it was like... he looks closer. "Ashen fields. The stadium. The one known as Calyrex tells us to be heroes, gave us a prophecy... Hammerlocke. Haku-" His eyes prick with tears. That was right! His Dragonite was gone now. His distant, silver gaze was watery. Haku was gone. He remembered her so fondly, a faithful companion for fifteen years. She got to have a good life, and now...[break][break]

He clutches the fragment of the crown tightly. His hand started to shake. "-they crowned me a king... we fought for so many years... Chocobo... I got to finally build the orphanage I wanted. I was married... there was a kid. Kep, he-" The tears are flowing like the waterfalls now, as he feels the fragmented crown shard dig into his skin, the blood soaking it, as he realized how much was gone.[break][break]

And how much the two were left with now.[break][break]

It hadn't registered. And his head was thrown up, as he bawls. The sheer weight of it, pushing down on him as it buried itself deep into his soul. The reverberations of what was lost, now echoes on the breeze as he cries for nothing but ashes. If he had been tormented before, now? The cruel twisted gods had left him broken.[break][break]

And was in the same boat.



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NOTES


- OUTFIT[break]
- The crown shard is dull. He begins to remember.[break]
- As he tells Isaac, it all comes in like flashes. Like reliving his life again. Ashen fields. Stadium. Calyrex. Heroes.[break]
- Hammerlocke. Haku. And he starts crying. Kingship. War. Chocobo. Orphanage. Marriage. Kid.[break]
- He wails to the heavens at the echoes of ashes.






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BURY ME LOW
POSTED ON Jul 8, 2023 21:54:54 GMT
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Not every day Walsh wants to speak with a lower grunt on the totem pole. Elite Ashley was set to head into the Ultra Sea mission soon, and upon success, should be promoted to Executive. Another wrung on the ladder, another step closer to overthrowing the top and fixing Rocket.[break][break]

The issue, however, is that for whatever reason, Ashley had been feeling rather nervous. Something was off about today. He couldn't place it. Exercising it didn't help. Drinking water didn't help. Hell, talking it over with Bongo, his faithful companion, didn't help.[break][break]

He messages and .[break][break]

Meeting with Walsh. Wish me luck.[break][break]

His dream was simple, and he hoped he could make it. But as he neared the door, he held a hand up... he wouldn't run away. Anxiety still spikes, as he pushes in. And there they were. Walsh. And...[break][break]

Jay.[break][break]

Why was he here? Ashley keeps his composure. "You wanted to see me, sir?" There's a hint of respect in his tone, a respect that had taught him, and one he had learned to handle better than when he was younger. But the sweat started to trickle down his neck. He can feel his heart pounding in his ear. With hands behind his back, he felt insurmountably small to the boss and the admin in the room, just a lowly elite.[break][break]

But even someone so small can reach the gods sometimes. But unlike Icarus, Ashley would know not to fly too close to the sun...[break][break]

Right?



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NOTES


- OUTFIT[break]
- Called here, he messages Kep and Isaac about the meeting, and enters the room...[break]
- Why was Jayden here...? He acts cordial, but he's bothered. It's visible.






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carry on, carry on, as if nothing even matters [s][c]
POSTED ON Jul 6, 2023 21:54:14 GMT
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It's maybe been a day.[break][break]

It's hard to keep track of time after twenty years.[break][break]

What was even the mission they had been on? Something about Zacian and Zamizenta. They were gone, but it felt like a far off dream now. But the pain, the agony still remains. Those twenty years...that's the problem. They happened. Yet it doesn't feel like it. It feels like everything returned to the status quo, like the war is back on. Community torn apart by what came before.[break][break]

They were in their twenties again. And tonight, as they sat in the dark of the apartment, a blanket between them in air-conditioning cold, Ashley had the tub of ice cream out as the television played the movie. How long had they been here, trying to get through it...?[break][break]

...[break][break]

Ashley turns off the TV finally.[break][break]

"Kep."[break][break]

It was time to really talk about what happened those twenty years. What could have been. The life that was gone. The death of Chocobo, and...[break][break]

The things Ashley thinks he remembered about the dream that was their own.



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NOTES


- Eating ice cream. Watching TV together. Sad. Crying.[break]
- Ash turns it off. They need to talk about it.






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THE BORDER: IKA
POSTED ON Jul 6, 2023 21:53:16 GMT
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Everything gets slower. Slower. Silver eyes watch on, at the madness that was to come. Yet it happens fast, as Isaac fights on, and all Ashley can do is watch. Mind to the whetstone, he thinks of a way out of this. Bongo? In pain, but still up. Sunny? He was so tiny, Ash can't risk him. Salem? She might have a way to turn this around. Jelly? No chance, types won't mesh. Toothless? Golurks are immune to his stronger strikes. Bass? That's a war of attrition.[break][break]

Sweat begins to pour down his face. But he's frozen, and he watches Isaac fight. Isaac was strong, he would persevere, right? He was doing work, striking back against the Golurk, and as Ashley spins around on a heel, he looks back to Kep. He was crying.[break][break]

"Kep..."[break][break]

Which meant there was only one way this could end.[break][break]

The Grim Reaper would find his dues, but Ashley turns back around, resolve pushing through him. Throwing two balls up, Salem and Sunny hit the field. All of his but Jelly are on the field now. The Umbreon and the Scorbunny sit on reserve, as Bongo wipes the blood from his head, Toothless still coils his neck, and Bass surveys from above. His hand clinches into a fist.[break][break]

What happens next is like a scene from a nightmare.[break][break]

Isaac is doing well to fight on, to fight strong, and pushing back against the Grim Reaper Golurk, it seems things will go well. He's buying time. Time for Ashley to think of how to get out. But it's when Ashley sees the hand from behind Isaac, that it's too late.[break][break]

"ISAAC!" He cries out.[break][break]

A sickening crunch... and in a flash, with a palm to the spikes, Isaac was gone.[break][break]

"ISAAAAAAAAAAC!" His voice was hoarse, his pupils shrunken, as he stares at the beast now, the body tossed away like a broken toy as it stares down at them. Pluto does her best to keep the beast at bay, with Hagakure matching the energy, and awaiting him. But as all of Ashley's team sits at the ready, all he can do is cry out.[break][break]

In sadness. In mourning. In fury. In anger. His tears fuel him, his teeth grit.[break][break]

The Golurk scoffs at them. It reduced one of them to dust. The lesser Golurk. And now it took the most able fighter of them down. What could humans do?[break][break]

"NO MORE. NO MORE BLOOD. DO YOU HEAR ME, YOU OVERSIZED BUCKET OF SHIT?" Ashley declares, and taking a step forward, Bongo, Sunny, Salem, and Toothless prepare, with Bass landing nearby. His five are at the ready, his anger their anger, pulsating through them.[break][break]

And the strategy begins. Now it's no longer about getting out alive. It's about punching the Grim Reaper in the dick as many times as he can. "I WILL KILL YOU AS MANY TIMES AS I HAVE TO MAKE SURE YOU STAY BURIED!" His pistol is out, and he fires every round in his mag, until pulling it empties it. "DISAPPEAR!"[break][break]

With it, Bongo slams the drums in a DRUM BEATING to surround their cage match, to keep the bastard Golurk and all of them here in the vines. Sunny shifts types with LIBERO by utilizing AGILITY, while Toothless racing forward with a slam of his AQUA TAIL to this beast's face. Salem pulses with dark energy, a DARK PULSE intent to push this bastard to their knees, while Bass moves back to Kepler, to protect him.[break][break]

Ashley stood with their forces, at the ready to protect Kepler completely. No one else dies today. Not a one.[break][break]

Not as long as Ashley yet draws breath.[break][break]

"GIVE HIM BACK." He roars.



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- Can you feel the intensity? After seeing Isaac die, and how Kep is... Ashley steps up.[break]
- Time to beat the Grim Reaper within an inch of their unlife.[break]
- Ashley fires every bullet he has in his magazine to off the Golurk Grim Reaper.[break]
- Bongo DRUM BEATING, Sunny AGILITY-LIBERO, Toothless AQUA TAIL, Salem DARK PULSE. Bass protects Kepler.[break]
- No more blood.






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Ash
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Flood
POSTED ON Jul 6, 2023 21:50:48 GMT
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He didn't know what came over him, these days. After the twenty year long single day mission he had, it was a vacancy in his heart. What was left was a hole inside of him, to come back to this same organization, this same conflict, this same hell that had him flee Kanto. The whole dream... it felt like a dream now, he chased, and yet it was nowhere. Galar was elsewhere, a figment of reality in his heart and soul. If he had stayed the path, stayed away from Rocket here in Hoenn, he would have been happy.[break][break]

A twenty year hypothesis that led to a completion of a correct theory that now was just that; theoretical.[break][break]

So true is the fact that he could be pulled back into it. Yet, he didn't want to be here anymore. In Rocket. In Hoenn. In the middle of this war. Walsh was a fucker. And the rest of the bloody-red R were flooded with them. Bastards, hidden behind every one of them.[break][break]

It took him awhile to get out of bed. Longer still to tell he was going on a walk to the beach. He promised he'd take his phone. He'd be just a little, but... he needed to talk to someone. They'd need to go to therapy together, really, but... he needed the walk at night.[break][break]

Twenty years wiser, he texts. Yet weakly, he thinks it over. Cocoa was at his heels, having only just seen him the other day, worried now, with a just-as-worried Law, the little Kubfu and the Hisuian Zorua chasing after him.[break][break]

When he sees her, it's like seeing a ghost. A phantom of the times long past. "Been awhile." Silver eyes look vacant. He looks vacant. He IS vacant.[break][break]

Twenty years of time of an absence led him to accept he'd never see them again, yet it felt like a far-off dream now. But he doesn't look okay. He doesn't seem okay, and with the Kubfu and Zorua popping out, Cocoa shows happiness towards her friend, Colie. Law is just... worried still, hiding behind his leg.[break][break]

"Haven't aged a day."[break][break]

Forty-five year old Ashley inside the head of twenty-five year old Ashley. Of course that was his first question. She hadn't aged at all.



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- OUTFIT, MISSION[break]
- Sees Naia in the midst of some really messy thoughts. Vacant eyes. Cocoa is happy to see Colie. Law just stares behind his legs.[break]
- Vacantly states how Naia hasn't aged a day... it's... weird. Odd?






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Ash
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Ultramar [S]
POSTED ON Jul 6, 2023 21:48:59 GMT
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Twenty years ago, he'd stand here today, looking out at the sunsetting in the west, silver eyes longing for something more in this life, but realizing he was trapped. Imprisoned by heart and soul in a jail of his own making, awaiting the day the coffin would lower him into his eternal rest. Internal turmoil, physical pain. He could still feel the aches and pains of twenty years ago when he was forty-five.[break][break]

In truth, Ashley remembers the feeling well. It's been coming back to him in bits and pieces, shreds back and forth. He had a Dragonite at one point, he remembers. A gift from his partner, his love. She's... somewhere now. He can't fully remember her.[break][break]

Listlessly, his hand thumbs over the old shard of the crown he had. He felt as if he were twenty years wiser, trapped in an alien body that no longer felt like his own.[break][break]

He stands looking out at sea, the ebb and flow the last bit of relaxation he can feel as the sun rises from the east. On his hand, a ring now. Engaged. Yet, years of marriage were so much more than the engagement. Engaged again. Here again. Something he never wanted twice.[break][break]

Black bags sit under puffy eyes. How long had he cried? The strawberry ice cream he and shared was disgustingly fattening... over the life that they lost together.[break][break]

And all that came to a head.[break][break]

He should be happy now. He got to see everyone else he lost for twenty years. But the problem of it is, they were twenty years gone. To him, they felt like ghosts. , , , , , didn't matter. They felt like apparitions here to torment him, to pick and prod at him. He accepted that he may never see them again. Any of them. He missed them, but they lived on.[break][break]

They had lived on.[break][break]

Now. He's on the docks, seated. There's a hidden maturity in his face. Years of it that had sobered him to the same shit Isaac had told him twenty years ago... this conflict between the League and Rocket was fucking stupid. Entirely so. But they were expected to continue holding the torch, to keep pressing on. A good soldier fights on, right?[break][break]

Bullshit. All of it.[break][break]

So much blood, and for what? A stupid stone that Walsh now gets to wave around in his shit hands? The Kool-Aid tastes great after enough stockholm syndrome taints the flavor, no matter how bad it really was for them.[break][break]

Isaac finally comes. But he doesn't turn to face him. It felt like another ghost. He hears the blonde's voice, and all he can do is hold the shattered piece of olden crown. All he can do is stare. As Isaac sits down at the docks, Ashley's face shows a face of a man far older than he felt, staring at the reminder of what came before, his eyes are bagged and puffy, and his face was pale.[break][break]

"Hey."[break][break]

It's... heartbreaking to hear how broken he felt, the way his voice felt so barren of emotion. He still can't believe he sounded like this. How gross it felt to hear his younger voice, and yet the older voice he would come into felt like a far off memory. A dream.[break][break]

To his second question though, Ashley turns to see him. "No." Finally. Ghosts didn't have such vibrant, blonde hair, did they? His silver eyes were vacant, he had been zoning out. Like he was looking past Isaac. Far past him.



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NOTES


- OUTFIT[break]
- Where do we even start?[break]
- Ash is currently staring at the old piece of crown in his hands. Twenty years wiser. The conflict is bullshit.[break]
- Doesn't turn to face Isaac as he approaches. His voice is a broken hello... his Pokemon are nearby, playing.[break]
- He finally sees Isaac... but sees a phantom. No. He isn't okay.






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