lam
he/him
twenty-seven
may 7th
hau’oli city, alola
rooksexual (demi)
lilycove gym leader
gym leader
his hands keep turning into birds and flying away from him. eventually the birds must land.
warm blood
POSTED ON Nov 17, 2023 2:01:11 GMT
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Nothing he said was working. He could feel that helpless agitation creep in again. Why couldn’t he say anything right? Contrary to Rook’s belief, Lam didn’t think Rook was weak in the slightest. But he fell silence as Rook continued to protest.[break][break] The snap made him wince back, and he shook his head–frustrated. “No, that’s not what I meant. It’s just, that’s not usually what happens, so it caught me off guard. You can process how you want to.” He just hadn’t expected it, hadn’t seen this sort of response coming because Rook was normally so loud in how he felt.[break][break] But it had made him feel that much more guilty, hadn’t it? Or really, it only exacerbated a guilt that had already existed, because he’d known the second he’d gotten hurt that it wouldn’t go over well, and maybe he should have just disengaged with Theo like he had with the others. Not that he could go back and undo it, or had even had the time in the moment. But he would have, if it spared them this.[break][break] Suddenly, though, it felt like this reaction might have come on his return whether he’d had a broken arm or a minor cut. He didn’t understand, he couldn’t read the thoughts that ran through Rook’s mind–especially not in the current moment, but something about Rook’s resilience and his frustration seemed to go beyond what was presented. It didn’t feel like he was about to understand exactly what was going on. Maybe he wouldn’t just yet.[break][break] If he didn’t want to turn this into an even bigger argument, he’d have to be okay with that for now. He realized that when Rook crumpled in on himself, hands hiding away his face. It made Lam’s chest ache, and he tried to tamp down the guilt again. He didn’t want this fight, his justifications quieted.[break][break] With a grunt, Lam pulled himself upright. A task that proved more difficult than he’d thought. The hours that had passed and actually slowing down for the first time in a few days gave his muscles time to catch up and stiffen as he’d been laying there. But he scooted along the side of the bed regardless of the effort it required until his thigh bumped into Rook’s. His body threatened to sag on contact, but he held himself carefully in place, fully prepared to back off if he was told to.[break][break] Carefully, using his good hand, Lam smooth over Rook’s hair and then cupped his face, leaning in so that their foreheads pressed together. “It’s okay,” he murmured, shifting again so that his arm could slide down and turn Rook’s body inward toward him. Wrap his arms around him the way he’d wanted to from the start. Even if the plastered one was clumsy as it thumped lightly against Rook’s back.[break][break] “I’m dumb, I know.” It was more of a consoling coo than true self-deprecation. Soothing agreement. “You’re dating a big dummy. But he loves you.” His chin tucked against the curve of the other’s shoulder. “You’re okay. It’s okay.” He didn’t know what else to say, but that.
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