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extraction: navy & desiree
POSTED ON Dec 4, 2023 21:28:28 GMT
[nospaces] [attr="class","desikiss"] [attr="class","body"] The monkey sprawled across her shoulder blades giggled and pointed while the other one made its claims, claims that caused her heart to ache more than ever before. Twin swords, once encased in blood now residing deep into the hilts of their souls- Desiree was quick to eat her words of selfishness, unable to realize how others may have and did go through similar, wretched experiences as her own. Seeds of grief released darkened pollen and spores from their indentations in her heart, swiftly swimming through her nervous system in shock, heightened by the claws of the monkey that dug into her spine.[break][break] As she listened to his story cast through the mist of cruel dreams, the cascade of tears flowed with numbness. Redness and shock sprawled across her cheeks, the drained empathy causing her to feel tenfold for Navy despite never being able to feel for herself. "We're killers.. it's.. so wrong, I would have never thought..," She sniffled, putting the pieces together that she was more like him than she ever thought she could have been, but in the worst of ways. "Why must we live in a world like this? A world with so much hate, where it trumps the very concept of love and innocence, I.. it haunts me, I know deep down he deserved it.. but it makes me feel even worse, as nobody deserves to fall at the hands of another.. it goes against the life I always dreamed of, being the face of love.." A part of her wishes she would have let him succeed, let him sink his knife in one more time.[break][break] "I don't know how to move on, I try and try, but nothing ever works," she bit her lip, feeling the delicate kisses of the monkey against her neck as Navy's arms embraced her, ".. how did you.. did you.. get over it..? It can't define you, you're.. you, all you've done for the world..! But it defines me, it eats at me.. I'm guilty.. I can never be better, I'm unqualified to help anyone.." Trembling as the monkey whispered to her more and more of what she believed to be lies, Desiree was beginning to hit her limit, the numbness and sadness turning into anger. A bitterness, a wish to never accept that the world would truly never be as full of love as she always wished it to be. The monkey told her it would never be the way that she wanted, it would always be full of evil, full of hate, and she despised the thought no matter how true it could have been.[break][break] It brought her to pull from the hug and reach for the monkey's skull with both of her hands, pulling and pulling at the heaviness until it inevitably released. Looking at its hate-imbued eyes as it continued to giggle and point, her hyperventilation and overexposure caused her to shakily push into them with her sharp nails, popping, digging, reducing it to twitching, turgling clumps. A killer, the core of what she never wished she would have become. But like the manifestation of her father born from the flesh in this very chamber, she was sick of all its taunts. It did not deserve to know, it did not deserve to manifest and exist. It did not deserve to spit into her ears or lay kisses upon her neck. As it laughed on the floor, it ate at her more, burning her on the inside. Guilt. Navy[break][break] NOTES- owo [googlefont=Poppins] [newclass=".desikiss"]--accent:#ff9ebe;font:12px Poppins;[/newclass] [newclass=".desikiss b"]color:var(--accent);font:bold 14px Roboto;letter-spacing:.1px;[/newclass] [newclass=".desikiss i"]color:var(--accent);[/newclass] [newclass=".desikiss u"]text-underline-offset:3px;text-decoration-color:var(--accent);[/newclass] [newclass=".desikiss a"]font:12px Poppins;color:var(--accent);[/newclass] [newclass=".desikiss h1"]font:16px Poppins;color:var(--accent);font-weight:bold;[/newclass] [newclass=".desikiss h2"]font:14px Poppins;color:var(--accent);font-weight:bold;[/newclass] [newclass=".desikiss .body"]background-image:url("https://image.ibb.co/cpf8Wc/flower_patt.png");background-position:bottom;background-repeat:no-repeat;text-align:justify;letter-spacing:.2px;[/newclass] [newclass=".desikiss .pkmn img"]margin:-10px -7px 0px -7px;[/newclass] [newclass=".desikiss .credit"]width:100px;background-color:#232323;font-size:10px;margin-top:7px;padding:3px;[/newclass] [newclass=".desikiss .credit a"]font-size:10px;[/newclass]
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