pax
he/they
28
may 26
vermillion city, kanto
pansexual
intel and accountability officer
deputy director
then i'll become the monster, i will deal the blow
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paxton concordas
you can hear it in the silence,
POSTED ON Oct 26, 2023 3:55:37 GMT
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You don't feel it. You don't fully grasp it. When the last test ends. When the final, final project is turned in. [break][break]
When your lips meet his after he congratulates you on the balcony of a party- [break][break]
the last paper thin barrier between you both ripped through by the passage of time and the consumption of alcohol. [break][break]
Your measurements are taken, your cords are ordered. You spend some time with your closest friends decorating your caps and laughing about the future. You talk of the job offers you've gotten or not. [break][break]
But it all feels fake. [break][break]
That is until you're in the stadium, hiding in a looooong, long corridor with your classmates. There's hundreds of you, but luckily you get to sit with friends. [break][break]
Your robes shine silky and navy blue. From your neck hangs a couple of cords to mark special achievements. Your grades, your academics, your college even. [break][break]
And when you're asked to walk and fill the folded metal chairs it still doesn't feel real. You see your peers filling them aisle by aisle and then you look up and above. There's hundreds, maybe even thousands of faces here. All murmuring and smiling. [break][break]
And then you hear a high pitched cheer and your eyes meet theirs. [break][break]
Your family, grinning ear to ear all happy- all alive- [break][break]
Of course they're alive. The bigger miracle is them being able to take enough time off to see you walk. [break][break]
But you don't think of that. You need to last through the speaker and your valedictorian. Or salutatorian? The student speaker. Your special guest. And finally, the calling of your names. [break][break]
Music blasts as the band plays you out. All 1200 of you. Alphabetical, called up by name. You're probably right in the middle. Just about. It starts to feel real. You feel the butterflies rumbling in your stomach. Nothing can interrupt this moment. Thousands of faces, happily smiling back and forth, celebrating a mutual accomplishment. [break][break]
It's almost your turn. Your aisle rises to their feet and snake to the stage. You recognize some people who's hand you need to shake. The president, sure, and the dean of your college. The others? Not really, but they nod and smile as if you were their own. Your footsteps thump on the worn wooden stage and you grasp a hand firmly, heart in your throat as he tells you gently to turn slightly 45 degrees and smile. [break][break]
Flashes go off. You wheeze a 'thank you' as you keep going, faux diploma in hand and stand proudly for your picture to get taken. All the while, screaming, screeching, and excited cheering peal out of one specific section of the stands. Your family- immediate and extended. Every single one of them beaming down at you and you manage a grin back. Your eyes get a little misty as you vaguely hear them screams the words 'proud!' and 'blessed!' before filing back to your seat. [break][break]
And when the ceremony ends your happy, proud, alive family nearly bowls you over like a rambunctious group of golden retrievers. Blonde hair whipping in the wind as they buzz around you lie ka beehive, all taking turns in congratulating you, kissing you, hugging you. [break][break]
Anything everything to be present, To make sure you know they're so, so proud of everything you've done. [break][break]
They are so proud of everything you will do, Concord. [break][break]
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[attr="class","oocnotes"] + let's not get drafted immediately into the civil war yaya
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