Baki
She/Her
18
December 21
Saffron City
Bi
Gym Leader
Officer
oceans of angels, oceans of stars, down by the sea is where you drown your scars
COMMUNAL CURRY #6
POSTED ON Sept 15, 2023 15:19:28 GMT
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Tsubaki's curry entry[break] thread summary: Hyakkaryōran Tsubaki is a Faller who constantly Falls into the Ultra Deep Sea beneath her home on Dewford. After more than a dozen ventures into the Ultra Deep Sea, Tsubaki has become numb to it. She doesn't act like herself down there, is often reckless and makes stupid decisions, getting caught up in the spectacle of it all.
After their last visit there, Navy decides it's time for an intervention. This leads to a heart-to-heart about past traumas, your purpose for living, and what you let define you.[break]
why is it important?:
Turning Over a New LeafThis thread is the crux of Tsubaki's existence on Hoenn so far, coming to terms with her new life. It's essentially the capstone of her first arc, which involves finding purpose after achieving the one thing you've been working toward your whole life.
In Tsubaki's very first thread, Navy saved her from being falsely arrested at customs for a crime she didn't commit. From that point on, she was given a job as his primary assistant and a place to stay, and all the opportunities she needed to live a normal life. Shortly after, the conflict at Dewford forced her to reconcile with her past while fighting for a future she was unsure of. Whatever she was destined for from that point on, it couldn't be normal.
Dragging Tsubaki along with him on another job as a Sheriff, she's lead by Navy to believe that this is another venture into the Ultra Deep Sea. However, when she enters the time-space distortion, she's dismayed that he intentionally lied to her about where they were headed. Once there, Navy chastises her, tells her she's getting caught up in fantasy. She comes to realize that most of what she feels regarding the sea, Eternatus, her compulsion to keep going again and again is just her own delusions.
Her tendency to Fall into the Ultra Deep Sea is psychosomatic, something spurred on by refusing to face reality. Even if it's true to a point, she's living in a dream. Torn between her past as a Rocket and her future as a member of the League, she's unable to reconcile the two because she's beholden to the expectations her adopted father figure places on her.
Navy begs her not to become another version of him, and with the realization that he's projecting himself onto her she realizes what she needs to do. She can't stay in this listless dream forever, afraid of confronting her past because she doesn't want to hurt him. There's only one future for Tsubaki, and it's making right for her past as a Rocket. As much as Navy doesn't want her to become like him or his deceased younger brother, she can't keep running from herself in the Ultra Deep Sea in order to satisfy the desires of somebody else.
This thread is the culmination of that arc, finding purpose in a new life after experiencing trauma.
Finding MeaningSo much of Tsubaki's life prior to arriving in Hoenn involved escaping Rocket and trying to be free. So intense was that struggle that she didn't even imagine what her life could be beyond that struggle.
Her threads primarily touch on grappling with that listlessness, the inability dream of something more because for so long she was afraid to dream. She's been spurred to action living alongside Navy, reacting to the various odd and nonsensical things that come about due to the town in which they live being situated above the Ultra Deep Sea, but she's never had a purpose before now because she's been afraid of confronting it.
Navy's given her everything, made her go back to school, and at the end of everything she sees him as a surrogate father figure, the family she never truly had. It's been Navy who's slowly given her a glimpse of a life she could lead. At the same time, because of this lack of clarity in her purpose, she's been told by him again and again that she should just live a happy and normal life.
Navy's been afraid of her becoming like him, or of her ending up like his younger brother, which has prompted her to settle into this conflict with herself in the Ultra Deep Sea because grappling with the one thing in her life that she believes in anymore would hurt someone she cares about.
The Ultra Deep Sea is a lotus-eating machine, a fantasy world Tsubaki can escape into where she can be anything and doesn't have to confront the past or the future. What does that remind you of, members of Hoenn?
Moving OnThis thread involves Tsubaki finally coming to a realization that living for the sake of someone else's trauma is defining her in a way that isn't true to herself. She can't keep living in a dream anymore, and has to confront what's real. In a way, though Navy gave her all this opportunity and guidance, without asserting herself she was also stifled by living alongside someone so much larger than life. What he didn't want her to be was the only thing she could accept for herself, and that fed into her running away from reality. The only future she can accept is one in which she confronts her past, going after Rocket. She must assert herself as an individual and come into her own, which she can't do when Navy's right there. He's like a star that burns too bright, and her clarity of purpose doesn't yet shine bright enough for her to stand out as an individual when she's working with him. She'll get there, but first she needs to learn how to be an adult instead of a wounded child. This thread's the final chapter of Tsubaki's story on Dewford, at least as Navy's assistant. Promising to keep her head on straight, she resigns and gathers the resolve to leave Dewford in order to get more directly involved in the struggle against Team Rocket. To that end, she asks him for his blessing in the form of a letter of recommendation sent to freya morningstar .
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